So yeah, I’m still alive

College is owning me over and I don’t have much time lately, sorry ūüė¶

I also lost my old domain oneleafclover.com to the internet pirates, so from now one let’s use gvermehren.wordpress.com instead. I also took the Facebook page down (because I didn’t have time to update it anymore). Thanks for your support until this moment and happy holidays!

Quick update: I’m no longer blonde and I’m currently playing Pok√©mon Moon.

Brunette me

Brunette me


Ainda estou viva

Mas a faculdade t√° complicada e ando meio sem tempo, desculpe, ūüė¶

Meu antigo domínio oneleafclover.com também foi raptado pelos piratas da vida e de agora em diante vou usar gvermehren.wordpress.com mesmo. Também tirei a página do Facebook do ar por falta de tempo para atualizá-la. Muito obrigada pelo apoio até aqui e boas festas!

Pequena atualização: Não sou mais loira (vide foto) e estou jogando Pokémon Moon.

Veterinary Internship

(Tradução para o Português no fim da página)


Today I met death… Again.

In case you haven’t followed, I started my veterinary medical¬†internship last week (Jan 24). In Brazil you can start your internships as early as from the 3rd semester in college (however, there are many limitations on what you can and cannot do as an intern) and since I’m about to start my fourth semester, here I go.

I'm an intern at an emergency clinic, therefore, me and the other interns must wear those scrubs all the time. I like it though. Fa√ßo est√°gio numa cl√≠nica de emerg√™ncias, ent√£o o pijama cir√ļrgico √© obrigat√≥rio como "uniforme".

I’m an intern at an emergency clinic, therefore, me and the other interns must wear those scrubs all the time. I like it though. /¬†Fa√ßo est√°gio numa cl√≠nica de emerg√™ncias, ent√£o o pijama cir√ļrgico √© obrigat√≥rio como “uniforme”.

My first day was crazy, awkward and awesome at the same time! I was feeling veeeeeeeeery insecure at the beginning, but the other interns, doctors and technicians were all so patient and nice to me and I learned a lot from them. And every time I go there I come back home with another huge package of freshly acquired knowledge and experience.

However, sometimes it can get¬†tough and psychologically stressful. And like I said, “today I met death again” and it was much closer than I wished. We’ve putted a puppy to sleep – she was a llittle stray dog brought by a kind gentleman who saw her dying on the streets and tried to help. Unfortunately, she had the Canine Distemper Virus at a very advanced stage and there was nothing left to do… but that. I wasn’t the one to do the procedures, but I held her and patted her until she stopped breathing. It was a very sad moment, for everyone.

Despite these kind of things being¬†routine in veterinary medicine, it’s still definitely difficult to me because, although I don’t want to see any living creature to suffer, I don’t think I have the right to decided when it’s their time “to go”.

I’m not sure how I’m going to deal with it in the future (though I’m pretty sure there will come a day when I’ll have to), I just hope I can find a good way to cope with. As of the moment, I just wish that baby is at the rainbow bridge now, having all the fun and caring that¬†was denied¬†to her in Earth. Rest in peace, little one.


(Portuguese translation below)

Hoje eu me encontrei com a morte… De novo.

Caso voc√™s n√£o tenham acompanhado, eu comecei meu est√°gio em clinica m√©dica e cir√ļrgica de medicina veterin√°ria semana passada (dia 24 de Fevereiro). No Brasil, voc√™ pode come√ßar a estagiar desde o terceiro per√≠odo de faculdade (embora haja muitas limita√ß√Ķes quanto ao que voc√™ pode ou n√£o fazer) e j√° que vou iniciar meu quarto per√≠odo este ano, aqui vou eu!

Meu primeiro dia foi uma loucura Рfoi estranho e incrível ao mesmo tempo. Eu estava muuuuuito insegura no começo, mas os outros estagiários, bem como os médicos e auxiliares foram todos muito pacientes e gentis comigo e me ensinaram bastante coisa. E todos os dias que volto de lá, venho com uma bagagem enorme de novos conhecimentos e experiências.

Entretanto, √†s vezes as coisas podem ser dif√≠ceis e, como eu disse, “hoje eu me encontrei com a morte de novo”. E foi muito mais pr√≥ximo do que eu gostaria – n√≥s botamos uma filhotinha para dormir. Era uma cadelinha de rua, trazida por um bondoso senhor que a encontrou nas ruas e tentou ajudar. Infelizmente, ela tinha Cinomose em estagio avan√ßado e n√£o havia mais nada a ser feito. N√£o fui eu quem realizou o procedimento em si, mas eu a segurei e acariciei¬†at√©¬†que ela parasse de respirar. Foi um momento muito triste, para todos.

Apesar de coisas assim serem rotineiras na medicina veterin√°ria, √© ainda muito dif√≠cil para mim lidar com esse tipo de situa√ß√£o porqu√™, embora eu n√£o queira ver nenhuma criatura sofrer, eu n√£o me vejo no direito de decidir quando √© a hora certa de “deixar partir”. Entendem?

Eu ainda não sei bem como vou lidar com isso no futuro (embora eu saiba que eventualmente eu vou precisar dar um jeito), eu só espero que eu consiga encontrar uma boa forma de enfrentamento. Por hora, tudo que desejo é que aquela bebezinha esteja agora na ponte do arco-iris, recebendo todo o cuidado e carinho que lhe foram negados na Terra. Descanse em paz, pequenina.

Surviving Disturbing Classes

I’m having a class called Cria√ß√£o e Produ√ß√£o Animal (something like Livestock production and management) at college. It’s basically about how to handle cattle, chickens and¬†pigs for the meat industry and maximize profits.¬†Which means: about¬†all the¬†things that bother me and that¬†I¬†really despise.¬†I guess I don’t need to mention I feel very uncomfortable at this class, right?

And although the teacher¬†does seem like a good person, she¬†is (like many)¬†openly in favor of animal slavery¬†testing and consumption. Since I’m studying to be a veterinary¬†physician,¬†there isn’t much¬†I can do about it but sit in there quietly and try to endure it.

You see,¬†I consider my university a good one. Compared to others in Brazil¬†it is far more¬†concerned about animal welfare.¬†We use anatomic models in classes (check the picture below), the¬†university¬†doesn’t keep caged animals for experimentation, things like that. But this class is (unfortunately) mandatory¬†for the course¬†because many vets work in this area.

My

My “oh my gosh. I don’t wanna¬†mess this up” face while testing an anatomic model fake “blood” during anatomy class.

I’m also the only vegetarian in my class and I don’t wanna be that annoying veg who’s always¬†complaining about everything and trying to force¬†people into¬†their convictions because I don’t think that’s the right way to do it. So I try not to argue much¬†during those classes, but sometimes it gets really difficult to¬†remain silent. ūüė¶

I’m accepting tips on how to keep a clear state of mind while I listen to¬†my¬†teacher talking about farms, breeding, slaughter, murderer… What I usually do now¬†is just¬†to take a deep breath, stare at a wall and hope for the time¬†to pass¬†quickly. It kinda works. Well,¬†sometimes at least.

Have any of you ever experienced somethig like that? What did you or do you do in this kind of situation?


Off topic: Since it’s getting really hot lately, this week I had my dog’s hair shaved. I did it myself and I think he looks definitely cute!

Raik seemed to like his new haircut as well